Tuesday, November 28, 2006
im so fucking pissed okay
urgh
dad coming home today. supp to be good i guess?
and i dont wanna go to the blogs to see the prom pics
every little things really makes me sadddd
gosh maybe i should stop being so strong headed. gahhh
anyways, anybody has dan brown's book for me to borrow? plss. kinda uh, urgent?
goshhh hanisah, you should really stop being so stubborn.
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6:19 AM
Thursday, November 23, 2006
im so fucking pissed and angry now
everything in my life is going the wrong way x(
sighhh i must've done smth really wrong in my previous life to deserve this
why do all the bad ppl get the good things?
im angrrryyyyyy. ANNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
gahh im bored, no surprise, noone at home=nth to do =/
i wanna talk to youuuu x(((((
have you ever asked for an explanation, have you ever given me the chance to talk? NOOOOOO
dont scold me anymore, things are bad enough the way it is
my life is screweeedddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd
rehearsal tmr
must rmb t bring costume and court shoes! (i hope i dont forget)
looking forward to dance
though im really bad at it and i havent 'practiced' at all
andand joyceee rebonded her hair! pretty baby =D
hah ok that cheers me up a bit
ouh my right eye is so painful now
hanizah or farrah or qinya (or maybe the 3 of them tgt!) must be poking a voodoo doll in the right eye now. grrrr
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1:28 AM
Monday, November 20, 2006
Fri got class results. Was supp to meet with sum and zan at 9.40 but that zan came only at 9.55 =/ so much for always complaining that im late. I was the earliest girl just now! Hmph. Then saw mira and the rest so went tgt. Aida gave me false hope! Hahaha. Anyways, got into s3. partly happy, partly ANNOYED. Happy cause like I know most of the ppl going into the class. There's raihan, amira, su (c2), me, siti, rev, divar, nat, aliffah (g1), RYHAN, NADIAH, Melanie (g2), liyana, Diana, wing yan (g3), aisah (s2), xin shyan, hazel (I think), mayvin, CONSTANCE (s3). Bleh. See the one in capital letters man. Besides that, im happy with the rest. Some more some of the mly ppl are the mly ppl im kinda close to or at least can get along very well- amira, raihan, liyana, Diana, siti, aliffah, nat! but im scared if I confirm get into the class I cant get along with the retainees =/. So, the annoying thing is that I hate the subj combi! There's like PURE LIT and combined PHYSICS and chem. Yuckyuckyuck! So might be appealing for either s1 or s2. but im kinda torn in between. You see, s1 there's PURE LIT too but no physics. S2 there's pure geog (no lit! yay! Can take elect hist!) BUT there's still combined PHYSICS and chem. =/// very confused la. And I wanted and expected to go into s2 la but I realized my choice was that I put s2 after s3. blehh! S3 was my fifth choice if im not wrong. Gosh, my brain must be off on that day man. Haha. so went out after that to tanglin mall to eat lunch. I bought a happy meal! Yay! Made me happy. Ahhaa. Then got this strawberry shortcake's sister toy that I got, apple smth la., so cute! Then my apple macdippers were so addictive. Hah. And we joked so much, esp bout the LITTLE MARTIN part. Loll! Hahaha. Laughed so much till my stomach hurts so much. Heh. Then made our way to far east. Took neoprints and walked around a bit. Tired, then went home. Oh, then there was this really WEIRD guy we saw/met while walking. I swear he was weird! Ahha. You know what im talking bout =p ok then I cant rmb much after that.
Sunday got back madrasah results. I just realize that my strongest subj is arab. Haha. honestly, I think memorizing characters are easier than memorizing words. Explains why I like and do well in csp and arab. And suck in other subjs which needs a lot of word memorizing. Haha.
Ohmigosh. Having Rachel and Ashley leaving next yr is alr bad enough. Guess whatt, micheal's leaving Singapore to go migrate to the states in dec! D=
Just found out bout it like, yest night? Im like so so gonna miss him, all his crap, his jokes and always smsing me rubbish when I say im bored. X(
Yea, I want you to read this! Thanks for always sharing with pearlywhirly to treat me or buy me thingys. Xp I was looking back at my old posts and realize that I NEVER talked bout you =/ so here it goes. Thanks for everything! Love ya loads! =D (haha. don't tell janet bout this or she'll hang me. =p) yea, no matter what, no matter how big the distance between us, we shall be FRIENDS FOREVER! Hah. And must rmb to think of us all here okie? Andand im still 9 days older than you, so must still respect me! Hahah. All the memories with you shall remain in my heart and the others forever. =) And must visit Singapore during your term breaks okay? And go skating and ending up tumbling over one another. Loll. Andand watch scary movies tgt with the rest and you will end up having red marks on your arm =p sigh. Its kinda saddening, you're like, my closest/best guy friend. =((( anyways, wishing you all the best over at the states. Try your best to get used to the place and get new friends. X) and I don't care, must go online often. I feel really bad cause I wont get to send you off with the rest. I'll be overseas then x(( sighhhhhhss. Rmb, 5 years later when you return must meet at our usual hangout, usual time, ohkay? Haha. Okay, take care and lots of lovee!
Your one and only and craziest friend,
ME!
ohoh! and ymc is total love! =DD
so looking forward to mt ophir trip. lalala~ haha. ok ignore me im going crazy today
=)
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5:11 AM
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
heys ppl. kinda moved to new blog. but this blog will still be in use la =)
http://rainingflowers-sadtango.blogspot.comrmb to drop by! =D
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10:59 PM
today had a very scary dream
and agn, i rmb the dream damn clearly
but its a short one
its like, i was sleeping on the sofa at the corner of the living room there
then my mum was baby sitting my neighbour's little daughter
my younger sis was playing with her in my room
then the father came to my house to take her home la
then got this weird invisible narrator like reading out the whole story (ok i dunno how to explain)
when the guy entered and my younger sister opened the doorthe 'narrator' said smth like, 'opening the door was the biggest miskate'
ok i cant rmb the exact words
but suddenly the guy like wanted to kill my whole family!
i pretended to sleep but he woke me up.
he pressed this toxic pill thing into my body
and before he did that i was like, 'why do you wanna kill my whole family? we're not rich and dont even have any assets!' hahaha. ok i know that sounds weird
then after pressing the pill into my body i begged him for one last request before i die
and guess what it was? to call and speak to HANIZAH for the last time. hahaha
and like he said, 'ok since you want that you have to die faster' so he gave me the house phone and put in one more pill into me
then this part i found it very sad lah
i rmb clearly dialling the correct exact number of hanizah's hp
then the phone kept ringing and ringing but she nvr pick it up
then suddenly after the last ring, the pill took effect and i died =(
and the narrator was like, '...and she died...'
then i suddenly woke up after that, so shocked and scared!
ouh, tmr getting results for class! kinda scared tough
and jiee is not coming, cant make it. im like so sad =(((
and i've been smsing her a lot lately man. oops? haha
enjoy your hols ppl! =D
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8:54 PM
Listening to 'irreplaceable' by beyonce now. I think it has been over twenty times that I keep repeating hearing that song for today. I don't have any special liking for it when I first heard it on radio but when I downloaded it and listened to it, it reminded me of...Hanizah. Dunno why either. But its definitely not because of the words, or the title. Haha. I can like, see her in my head, singing this song with that kind of expression on her face. So wont be surprising if five years down the road I see her entering Singapore idol singing this song. Hahah. But I cant stop listening to this man. Damn, its so weird. Tralala~ must admit that I kinda missed her. Sighsigh. But somehow, I felt so...cheerful bout it =/ but yea, I really hope that the truth will come to light soon. Yay. This shall be my HEART SONG for now. Hahs. Gosh, how I hope I accidentally bump into her very soon, no matter whats gonna happen later.
And and im so gonna miss my dearest beloved RACHEL LEE! And of course her cutie twinie ASHLEY LEE! X) they're gonna migrate to hong kong FOREVER on june next yr. ='( the moment she said she's migrating there forever I felt like crying, I did. A little I guess. Its like, a part of me will be gone. I thought like at least when I move on next yr, everything will change but I will still have rach. But...sigh. Im so damn sad. I didn't even get to celebrate her bday with her this yr. sigh. I guess there's no more chance next yr. no more smses to really cheer me up, no more passing letters in sch, no more complaining and whining to her bout everything that happens, no more going out secretly to take neoprints D= man, the thought really haunts me. Ok, shall not think bout it.
Shall talk bout my WEIRD dream yest! Haha. I rmb a lot of ppl appeared in it man. It was a very sweet one...till my stupid alarm had to wake me up cause I had to go for rehearsal. =/ but I rmb, me and this bunch of crescentians (the whole angklung team plus Natasha safia? And amira?) And also my sis and MASLIANA who looks kinda close. Ahha. We were in the mrt and we were making a lot of noise. Then somehow kartinie was inside the train with her 2 kids, oh yes, they appeared correctly as 2 cute little boys in my dream x) she was ashamed with all of us for making a lot of noise and when we tegured her she just ignore us and gave this dao look. Man. Haha. then somehow, farrah Shieqeen entered in my dream, into the mrt, in her crescent pe shirt and skirt, and her orange bag. She went to sit beside kartinie's kids and start playing with them. haha. I think it was cute. But when I tegur her, she just ignored me =( ohwells. So in my dream I just walked away lah. Then we all (tgt with farrah) alighted at this very weird unknown mrt station and suddenly liyana ate and someone says to her like 'eh someone fasting here' or smth like that la. And I asked around like 'who's fasting' and Natasha safia was like 'ahhh, me'. Haha. then farrah suddenly disappeared and my sis was bringing my red bag with her. I rmb we wanted to exit but I rmb my purse was in my red bag (sucha surprise she's so nice in my dream! hahaha) then my purse even appeared correctly in my dream! Gosh. So, after that, at the station, there was this staircase leading down, to another place where there is a train specially for ns ppl. Hahaha. Then like, there were many ns ppl la. Then we all went to take this really weird cable car and it actually FLOATS IN THE AIR! HAHAH! And there were like really big clouds around the cable car. Then...my dream stopped there. Yes, my stupid alarm clock =//
Actually im kinda surprised myself that I can rmb my dream so vividly. Maybe its telling me smth... I dunno lah. But yea, I cant stop thinking bout it dunno why, as if there's smth special bout it. it's the first time I rmb every single detail bout a dream... weird.
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8:48 PM
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
HAHAHA!
sweetie iz just dedicated smth to me x)
according to that cry baby la. hah
so darn sweet x))
hehh. but iz wanna kill carrie cause carrie thought my name was SOO as in 'SU'
hahaha. he said he wrote 'soo, can...'
smth like that. haha
anyways, lots of love to you too! and and i miss you badly too! x( meet uo soon ok?
and now, im your STAR GIRL! =D yay! haha, must buy for me yami youghurt soon darls.
bye~~ oh yes, the previous post was for YOU! xD lolx
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5:48 AM
TO !@#$%^&*:
Ten reasons to thank you,
1.) THANKS for making my life so colourful x)
2.) THANKS for always being by my side through rain or shine x)
3.) THANKS for the great listening ear you never fail to give me x)
4.) THANKS for tolerating my horrible temper =/
5.) THANKS for the frequent treats when I always complain im broke =p
6.) THANKS for believing in me and never give up on me x)
7.) THANKS for always giving me advices! xD
8.) THANKS for going out all the way to just do smth for me or to please me x))
9.) THANKS for the wonderful times you have given me x)
10.) THANKS for loving me for who I am! xD
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5:34 AM
This week was ohkay la.
Lets see. I haven't been updating much bout my boring life
Skip Monday...
(skip morn and afternoon...)
Tuesday went to study at night, at woodlands library.
Afters went to causeway point. Cousin was nice, bought for me coffee while studying and we each bought the voodoo doll thingy, but she paid for mine x) was very tired, reached home arnd nearly eleven lorh
Wed went to study at night agn. Saw another cousin who worked at macs, delivery man. Hahs.
Then while walking out didn't notice my doll dropped.
Cousin was nice agn, went to search around causeway (cause after that went to walk arnd there)
Then we thought it fell while we were walking out and its true. my poor doll. Haha. reached home slightly earlier, arnd 10 plus x)
Thurs was kinda uh, fun? Had test in the morn. Was okay, I know how to do all of the questions BUT Im not sure if I get the right answers =/
Then afters, went to cine with siti to eat. Decided to skip angklung to watch step up! Haha. shuushh.. so ate at long john's. gossiped a little here and there and had some uh, productive talks. Was funny and what I found out from her was so...unexpected! I really had no clue that * and * was tgt back then, the couple in our mly class hanna was talking bout. And some really shocking/surprising things.
Then walked arnd a bit to get siti her earrings. Saw joyce! The most unexpected person I expected to see man. Hah. and went to watch step up
Omg, channing tatum is like so WOAH! The movie's nice, just that siti agreed that it is kinda short, since like 1/4 of the movie shows them dancing xp
Was raining then and siti and I got half wet cause we shared an umbrella to heereen. Funny lar. Walked around a lot. Then went to far east I think. Yupp. Walked arnd a lot too. I cant really rmb. Gosh im becoming like old farrah =/
Then rmb we saw these bunch of really cute Japanese guys! Slurps! Haha
Siti was being really crazy man! Hahaha. And the chocs there was so darn tempting!
Then went home la afters, met raihan and attiqah at the bus stop. Hehh. I think that's it for the GREAT day. Hah, ohwells. At least it’s the best day I had ever since the boring sch hols =(
Lets skip fri too...heh. It was a short but sweet day for me. (failed attempt to study at night tough -.- )
Saturday, think went out to send grandma here and there. Did nth much la. And I saw this really rich bunch of kids, honestly, you just cant deny it. boo!
Studied at night till around 12. woah am I guai or what x)
Sunday, had test. Failed attempt to wake up early to memorise stuff. What to do la, my dream was too good to be disturbed. Hahaha. Ohmigosh, im being like oldie farrah agn =//
After exams stopped by causeway for a while to get gogos. Haha. noone can deny its nice! Even farz who don't really like satay LOVED the satay hotdog!
Then after that... hahahaha. LIZA was damn funny I swear!
She went to sms this person SOMETHING like this:
LIZA: 'wanna go steady with me?'
*: 'who the heck are you?'
LIZA: 'Liza. Meet you tmr at your void deck.'
*: 'I think you got the wrong person. I don't even know who you are.'
LIZA: 'correct what. You're * right? From -- primary right?'
*: '(I forgot what * replied!)'
LIZA: 'don't sms me back. Later I call you'
*: (cant rmb what * said. Scolded some vulgarities. Rmb theres the word BITCH at the end)
Haha sorry but I think its very hilarious. Not my fault I swear! It was LIZA's idea whatt. Hahahaha. Sucha funny prank, but have to admit it was kinda mean la. Heh. Then went out in the evening for awhile and came home at 7 plus.
TO !@#$%^&*:
Ten reasons to thank you,
1.) THANKS for making my life so colourful x)
2.) THANKS for always being by my side through rain or shine x)
3.) THANKS for the great listening ear you never fail to give me x)
4.) THANKS for tolerating my horrible temper =/
5.) THANKS for the frequent treats when I always complain im broke =p
6.) THANKS for believing in me and never give up on me x)
7.) THANKS for always giving me advices! xD
8.) THANKS for going out all the way to just do smth for me or to please me x))
9.) THANKS for the wonderful times you have given me x)
10.) THANKS for loving me for who I am! xD
Today sucked because of some ppl. Its just too...frustrating. I don't even know what to do or say now. But rachie dear cheered me up! Hahah. This particular line she said made me laugh. 'they're just people who need some love' lol.
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5:29 AM
Monday, November 06, 2006
got this super sweet thingy from this person's blog.
its so sweet, like kinda weird, its the same thing i'll miss
some parts edited by me, the one with slashes and in capital letters
I'll miss running t the rotunda just t see you walking
I'll miss staring at the back of your head when you're facing the other way.
I'll miss staring at you and looking away when you look in my direction.
I'll miss having the same recess on Thursday and Friday. (SO COINCIDENTAL! =D)
I'll miss looking out for you during morning assembly.
I'll miss acting cool when I see you arnd, when inside, I'm grinning till my cheeks hurt.
I'll miss acting like I'm at the same place you are by coincidence when its not.
I'll miss sending spies arnd school just t find out where you are.
I'll miss being happy when you talk t me.
I'll miss
shaking my phone in mid-air JUMPING ARND LIKE A MONKEY when I receive your msg.
I'll miss going t Kap, and hoping you'd be there.I'll miss sneaking t see you.
I'll miss saying Hi.
I'll miss making all kinds of code names for you.
I'll miss being shy WHEN I SEE YOU AROUND OR WHEN IM AROUND YOU.
I'll miss blushing like crazy around you.
I'll miss the tingly feeling in my heart everytime I see you.
I'll miss doing stupid things around you.
I'll miss hinting that I like you.
I'll miss everything about you. The bottom line is,
I'll miss you. I miss you already.
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11:10 PM
Im like so friggin pissed right now. And this puts me into the blogging mood
I decided to be diff today by recapping backwards starting from today, followed by tmr, wed etcetc
Today I just rot at home =/ seriously did nth much
Yest went to town. Failed to make new ez link card tough. =(
Oh. saw shah and dina and friends in mrt. They were going jln raye. Hah. Kinda surprised cause didn't know shah and dina know each other, what more friends.
Went to get for myself a new purse. Since I had lost not one, but TWO of my purses. =(
Then ate at far east. Got myself pretty earrings x)
Went to tangs, met grandpa. Mum got a pretty jug. Smelled wine. Haha. ok, inside joke. Went home after that I think. Yupp.
So my day was kinda boring la.
Wed went for jalan raye with the gee one girls! =))
Met mira and haslinda at je at 9.30. gosh, can you believe how early it was.
Was supp to meet hanna at her house at 10 and the whole journey, I was entertained with silly jokes. =p
Aisyah was alr there and ferind and aliffah came along soon. Siti overslept tough. Haha
Ate lontong. Yumms. Then went to aisyah's house and ate fried rice. But aisyah was bad mooding la. Oh, I ate so much of this jelly thingy tough it tastes a lot like soft sweet till I got sick. Hah. Didn't stay there long and went to haslinda's house next. Aisyah's mood got better then =)
Ate mee siam with hot dogs! Really nice since I love hot dogs. Heh.
Oh, the baby at her house was so cutee! But kinda naughty la, keep doing things that she's not allowed. And she even stole aisyah's sweets!
Went to my house next.
Met siti in the lrt.
While walking to my house there was this funny incident.
There's this bunch of MATs, like they were saying stuff and teasing us la.
Then if I rmb correctly aisyah said smth like "..." hhaha. Ok I forgot what she said, but it was so funny we laughed so hard. Haha.
It started raining heavily then. So since we were running out of time, no choice but to leave. And by the time we reached fajar lrt, we were all very wet tough we used umbrellas. Tengok la, semue tak nak bawak payong kan! Hah. Till had to borrow mine.
Ferind's house at jurong west was next. Her house was darn creepy I swear! Even hanna and mira thinks so too. she had this black cat, with this yellow, evil eyes it just sends shivers down my spine when it looks at me.
And her house is somehow...spooky. The atmosphere is kinda scary. Then when let go of her cat, I was so shocked cause it was beside me, I spilled my drink. =/
And we shouted. Ahha. Esp those who's afraid of cats like YOU-KNOW-WHO! =p
Then when ferind, siti and aisyah went upstairs to play with the cat whose name is ___. Ok I even forgot the cat's name =/
While they were playing upstairs, me, hanna, mira and aliffah were downstairs talking la. Then suddenly the television like turned on and off by itself. All of us (except for the BRAVE aliffah! Haha) screamed and ran away to the gate. Haha. it was so scary! =( somewhere with the kind of atmosphere.
Ferind was like, aiyah nth one la. But it still shocked us I didn't dare to go anywhere near the tv. =/
Left around 6 and proceeded to mira's house. Had to walk so much our toes were aching like hell. But the angelic haslinda offered to exchange her flat slippers with my high heeled ones. Is that sweet or sweet la =)
Hah. Then reached her house, ate mee goring agn with chix! Haha.
Watched the class movie. Damn, this one was much more saddening la. I teared a bit at the end. Ok, I shall upload the video here soon.
Mira's father sent us to lakeside mrt station and the 8 of us squeezed into the car, not really squeezed la since the car is very big. Hah.
Aisyah had to leave and mira didn’t wanna go. That lazy bum! =/
So, the 6 of us went to aliffah's house. Ate fried noodles with chix, like agn. But its still nice. Then we joked a lot and talked a lot bout our sec one days. Was really nice, bout our first days in sch, when we met and how we ended up like how we are now. I wanna have that talk over and over agn, and I swear I wont get tired of it =)
Then ferind's dad sent us to boon lay mrt station and has, hanna, me and siti went home tgt.
We made a bet bout what time hanna will reach home, and I was closest! Hanna reached home nearly 10! Okay, then me and siti went home tgt and I reached home around 10.30. man, I was damn tired la. Then bathed and went to sleep. Hee
Tues. uh, oh! did nth much, went to study at night at bk. It was so empty there, a very conducive place to study =) kinda productive I guess. But I still suck at algebra =/
Went home and reached only around 10? Yea, tired, bathed and went to sleep.
Mon, lets not talk bout it.
Lets just say it's the day I started hating this someone
Serious, I hate that person man. Ok so...skip skip...
Sunday went out if im not wrong.
Saturday and Sunday, my mind's totally blank I cant rmb anth!
Okay my memory sucks. Why? Cause it must've been a really really boring day.
Fri had class party at pasir ris.
Stopped by white sands to have lunch first. Jie and I got gogo hotdogs! Yumyum! Heh. Farrah should be jealous of me man.
Ate bread too. then made our way there, got a non air con bus! =D
The party was ok la. it was kinda great too actually cause we get to bond more with the goners. Swam a lot till I had a totally diff tan. Yay!
Heh. But I got sun burnt la since didn't wear lotion.
Then left at around 5 with jiee. Again, we stopped by white sands to eat gogo! Haha. ate a lot tough till my stomach felt like bursting. Boohoo.
Parted at city hall then went to meet Alyssa at orchard. She was with her girlfriend. But I think her gf's kinda dao, see me like don't like, just ignore like that. Boo, I not interested in your gf (Alyssa) also larh. Wait till you see the truth. Hah. Ok im crapping a bit.
Then went home. Oh, saw natria in the train. I kept looking at her cause at first I know I recognize her, just cant think who. She must've thought I was nuts. Hah. She looks like adilah azil tough. Hmmm.
Reached home at arnd nearly ten plus I think. Yupp.
Thurs was last day of sch, I cant express the memory in words. ='(
Ok, I will upload the pics, then the pics will tell the story of what happened =))
Oh! after sch had a small party thingy to celebrate jiee's and sum's belated bday. Everything was spoilt bcus of ms tan lor. Three boos for her! Boo boo boo!!! Haha.
Ok that's it I guess. Woah, what a long one.
But can la, 9 days worth. Hah.
I cant explain everything. It seriously hurts.
Five reasons why I hate you:
1.) I hate you for making me feel so bad after every fight or argument that we have.
2.) I hate you for always making me miss you even tough you’re right in front of me.
3.) I hate you for always hurting me, whether you realize it or not.
4.) I hate you for making me like you so much till I know no limits.
5.) I hate you for always making me feel indebted to you and that I couldn't even return and pay it with my life.
I dunno. Maybe this is the end. What do you think?
Get back to me soon tough. See point number 2.
See, what more not talking to you or messaging you for so long. It sucks. Bleh. Im off now. Hanisah, you should stop thinking too much bout this.
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5:20 AM
Church;